Did you hear about the Dateline special yesterday about what happens to children with autism when they turn 21? Well, I have to admit that I recorded it to watch at a later time. I can’t even think about the future sometimes without crying. I fear what will happen when my son gets older. What will his transition to “life” be like? Will he ever drive a car? Will he ever go to college? Will he ever truly have a best friend? Will he ever have a girlfriend? Will he ever get married? Will he be able to take care of himself? Will he have to live with us forever? Does his sister realize that she will eventually have to be her brother’s keeper? Will he have enough money to live on after we are gone? I am crying as I write this because these are things that I honestly try not to think about. It is just too overwhelming. I have to live my life One Day At A Time because I can’t bear thinking about the future. So many people take these milestones for granted…Some day soon, when I am ready, I will watch the program…alone. I know that at this time in his life, my husband is not interested in watching it…It is at these moments that I have to focus on God…That is the only reason why I am still sane…Time to pray.